Friday, May 29, 2015

Spiritual Hernia

The results came back positive.  Lyme's disease... the "great mimicker" of so many different diseases (many of which I have been diagnosed with).

The face paralysis I experienced on my way to Mexico... was from the palsy that is created from Lyme's disease.

The inability to speak English... that was from Lyme's disease.

The inability to write... that was from Lyme's disease also.

Out of all the things that I helped others overcome, as I worked with them as a health coach, the one thing that I dreaded to hear people say was "I have Chronic Lyme's Disease".  My heart sinks every time I think of a particular individuals I know, who has lyme's disease, who was alive yet dead in so many ways.  Every day was a struggle for her. She is married, she has children, she had desperately sought for answers and we were on the same path with regards to eating healthy real foods.  I had opportunities to teach her about fermenting foods, about digestive enzymes, about probiotics, whole food supplementation and about "my story" of healing, and about essential oils and cleansing, but never in a million years did I think that our situations were the same.  I was always so much healthier than she was... how could I possibly have lyme's disease?

Fast forward several years and I find myself deteriorating health wise.  I took down my blog for over a year as I searched for answers.  Ultimately I would be led to a Dr. in Mexico who would discover the hernia that he said was the "worst case he had seen in his entire 30 years as a Dr." The hernia was acting like a vacuum above my stomach, pulling all of the bile (that is suppose to go to my intestines) back into my stomach.  This was causing tremendous difficulty digesting food.  When the Dr. showed me the video of the endoscopy, my stomach looked like a bag that had been punctured all over.  It was a steady stream of blood that came into the stomach.  The Dr. pointed out some of the scar tissue that he said was "at least 10 years old or more".  He mentioned over and over how he could not understand how I did not have cancer.  He said most of those type of hernia's cause stomach or intestinal cancer.  For my case being the very worst he had ever seen he said "Gracias a Dios" (thanks be to God) but he didn't understand why I did not have cancer.

As you read through this blog you will learn how I had always used real foods, whole herbs and essential oils (along with exercise, pure water, etc.) to heal- always!  With the unknown issue of the hernia, I found myself at a point where I was unable to heal despite everything I knew and everything I was doing to be well.

When I was sitting in church last month during fast and testimony meeting, I felt strongly that I needed to go to the front of the church congregation to share my testimony of the Savior.  I knew the Holy Spirit was prompting me to share something but I didn't know what.  Full of faith, but not really knowing what I was going to say, after a long pause in the audience, I finally got up enough courage to stand.  Once I stood, it was just a matter of making it to the front of the audience to where the microphone was.

When I was speaking, I mentioned about my final attempt at saving my life and how I had felt "going to Mexico" was an answer to prayer.  I then mentioned how the hernia was causing my body to not be able to absorb the nutrition I needed and so my health suffered.  The thought came to me to talk about the Savior and the role he plays in healing our spiritual wounds...

Many times we may be doing all we can to be "spiritually well" by reading the scriptures, praying, going to church, attending the Temple, and serving others, but despite all of this, we may have a SPIRITUAL TEAR or wound that needs to be healed before we can properly absorb all of the incredible spiritual food we are filling our lives with.

Only the Master Physician can heal our spiritual tears.  Once the hurt and pain has been healed by the Savior, only then can we truly enjoy the nourishment that comes from spiritual food.  Once healed we can experience the peace, joy and comfort that comes from the partaking of spiritual food.


Once the physical tear was repaired, it took time for me to be able to eat and drink normally again.  I had to take teaspoons of water at first and chew my food really well and eat it very slowly, and I could only tolerate certain foods, but slowly over the course of about 6 months, I am finally able to eat somewhat normally and my digestion has tremendously improved.  It is nice knowing I will be stronger to rid my body of the diseases that took hold when I was in such a vulnerable state over such a long period of time.

Every person's tear or hernia is unique to them.  At times the Savior's healing can happen very quickly, and for some it takes more time due to the extent of damage done, but the healing balm of God is available for all of us.

When I was studying for my talk at Texas A&M last year, I was so sick that I called Dr. Lee and mentioned I no longer had my business website nor was I doing any coaching via Celiac Shack and mentioned perhaps he would like to remove me from the speaker list.  Dr. Lee let me know he understood and that he would be praying for me but he still wanted me to talk.  As difficult as it was to research the information when I felt like my brain was 'swirling in toxins' affecting my ability to think and speak well, I kept researching because I felt perhaps God was giving me the topic of "Cellular Metabolism - Side Effects and Solutions" because I needed the information myself.  As my research continued, the deeper and deeper I got into cellular metabolism, the more individuals spoke of energy affecting our cells ability to absorb nutrients.  One author compared a country at war and the lack of food transportation to what happens when we experience stress.  Our cells literally shut the doors to anything going in and out and despite the nutrition there, the cells do not open the doors until the stress has passed.  No wonder individuals with high stress levels become sick.  A weak, malnourished cell becomes vulnerable to disease.  Pain we hold onto creates stress in our bodies.  We need to constantly work to let go of all negative energies around us and surround ourselves with positive energies that heal, uplift and protect.

The thoughts we think, the energy of those we surround ourselves with, the beliefs we tell ourselves all affect our physical health.

Welcome to the Celiac Shack.  It has become more than simply going NATURALLY Gluten-Free.  It has become a place where I share with you my journey in hopes that it may help you, no matter the condition you are facing.  When I was reading about treating Lyme's the Dr. said that most people benefit more from the protocols if they are sugar, gluten and dairy free.  (I am a raw milk advocate and do not purchase the homogenized, pasteurized milk or dairy products from the store - but I definitely try to be naturally gluten-free and avoid refined sugars and use raw milk products sparingly.)

I pray that you or your loved one will be guided to those who will be able to help.  When I was in college I realized that everyone who looked even slightly like my x-step father would be instant enemy to me.  It really troubled me how much I hated one particular individual (a complete stranger) simply because he looked a lot like my x-step father.  Once I thought about the intensity of anger I felt and knew that it had the potential to kill. At that moment I knew I needed counseling. The counselor's first bit of advise was to read the New Testament in the bible with a new focus on understanding the atonement of Christ.  It took time, but eventually I understood.  Eventually I would humble myself enough and have enough faith to pray... "Father, I don't really understand how this all works, but I have enough faith to believe that somehow Jesus Christ truly did pay for all of my sadnesses and pain that others have caused."  I talked to Father in Heaven about the burden of hate and anger I was carrying and how I didn't want to carry it anymore and asked for help in Jesus' name.  I will never forget what it felt like as the weight was removed.  It was as if someone had taken a heavy back pack off of me.  I was absolutely astonished yet extremely grateful. Once the tear was healed, the relationships in my life also improved.  It was because of this very experience that I chose to serve a mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints.  I wanted others to know the same joy I had known by coming to know the power of the Atonement of Jesus Christ and I wanted to share with others what His Atonement had done to bless my own life.

Words from the scriptures that I love...

Doubt not... fear not... I am with you.  I will make weak things become strong.  I am He who the Father has sent.  Knock and it shall be and ye shall find... ask and ye shall be given.

You are His child.  He loves you.  He wants you to experience joy, happiness and peace.  "Men are that they might have joy."

Lyme's was that one thing that I didn't feel confident helping others to overcome. Now it is my time to be able to turn to the Lord, to heal and to have the capacity, yet again to make my "mess" my "message".  NEVER, EVER give up searching for answers and please pray you will be humble enough to recognize the answers when they come.  I truly hope that something in this little "shack" will be useful to you.

With much love,


Sunday, May 17, 2015

Gifts from Mother Earth

After the whirlwind fundraiser was over, (see my previous post) I asked the Roger's brothers if they had room in their suitcase to bring essential oils to the children in Nepal. Yes, there was extra space! Quickly I reached out to my beloved 'essential oil family' and within two days, these were the essential oils that were donated... 

When the donations were made, I wanted so badly to be the one to deliver them in person. I reached out to Clint and Gerald and was told that I could join them if I wanted to, but Dr. Rogers let me know of the dangers as well as the very rough conditions I would be surrounded by.

After a sincere prayer, I noticed that I had received a phone message, text message and a Facebook message from a friend who was in Nepal when the earthquake hit. She had seen me comment to someone that I was thinking about going to Nepal also. 

This is what she said...

"Hi Steffi,.... take it from someone who just got back from Nepal, you can do more good from here right now. Please delay your decision to go, you can keep praying for the children and raising funds, as you so beautifully are, but if you go right now, you may be more of a liability than a help. I am super-healthy but I came down with ... (she had a list of issues she was still dealing with)... Bottom line, it is not safe there, and the sanitary conditions are atrocious. Your immune system needs to be in perfect condition before you even consider going there. Maybe you and I can go back together in a couple of months?"

After messaging each other back and forth she would say this regarding our fundraiser that was held on the 15th of May...

"Trust me, I am crying myself to sleep each night, with the memories of what I saw there. Yes, there is so much suffering there, but then it's all over the world, isn't it? I shared oils with people along my trek and while they seemed to smile and really like it, we have to be honest with ourselves and recognize that these amazing oils are like step 20,000 out of the other more 'essential' items they need on a daily basis. Truly, what you are doing now, is far more helpful to them. Thank you SO much for what you are doing, it sounds amazing. I am so proud of you and your team for getting the word out about the orphanage. Now we both need to take a deep breath and remember the larger world, stay connected to your family and those that need you here and now. Have a super-duper time tonight (referring to the MUSIC and MAGIC fundraiser), I will be with you in spirit!!! xoxo"

As much as I love the essential oils and all that they bring, I realize that food, clean water and shelter is a priority for these children. 

Maggie, is sharing essential oil love with the world. It seems like every month she is in a different country teaching people about the power essential oils have to bless our lives. Here are some pictures of her and her husband after the earthquake in Nepal...

Maggie's Facebook post on April 29th 2015...

"We are back down to Namche Bazar, after two days of trekking and witnessing landslides and damaged homes along the way. Grateful to be safe and alive. Should be in Kathmandu within three days."

Maggie's 2nd post on April 29th...

"We visited the medical clinic in Kunde on our way up. The clinic sees about 25 patients a day; they do great work with minimal supplies." 

Here are some pictures of her before the earthquake hit...

Sadly, there was a friend of Maggie's who died in the avalanche at the base of everest due to the earthquake. 

I believe God answers our prayers many times through the inspired words and cautions of others. 

When I was a young girl my mom said she "didn't feel right about my going snowmobiling with a friend". I happily said "no worries, Mom. I'll pay for the Dr. bill if I get hurt." Little did I know what would happen, the years of chiropractic and physical therapy I would need and the pain I still experience, occasionally, to this day because I didn't listen to my inspired Mom.

We all have our free agency, right?

These are the amazing individuals who will be delivering the essential oils on our behalf...

(amazing hearts and hilarious as well - but definitely not essential oil experts)

The Roger's brothers at the airport this morning on their way to Nepal...

As much as my heart yearned to go to Nepal to deliver the gifts personally, I chose not to go to Nepal at this time. Maggie's inspired and insightful words were given to me as an answer to prayer.

Here is what I posted on Facebook this morning...

"When I was serving as a missionary (in Chile) almost 20 years ago, I had the opportunity to teach a couple of individuals who were deaf via a translator. The translated message was not delivered like I wanted it to due to the attitude of the translator. As individuals head out with the essential oils that have been donated, I pray nothing will be lost in translation. I really wish I could be the one to be there personally to wash the dirt from the children's feet, hands and faces, and I want to be the one to apply the right essential oils in the correct order, and correct dilution (for their age) to the bottoms of their tiny feet. I want their first experience with essential oils to be magical for them and so full of love and tenderness from a mommy figure who loves them unconditionally. However, I know that despite weaknesses, God atones. I am just so very grateful doors opened, individuals were willing and so much love was poured into those suitcases. I seriously cried when I picked up the orders at 'will call'. Each gift given was so carefully selected and sacrifices were made. Now to pray the love does not get lost in translation. Namaste."

I pray that I will be able to go to Nepal in July. Until then, I will do my very best to raise money for the children to rebuild the orphanage.

I will also continue to donate and raise awareness of the The Healing Hands Foundation (that I worked with when I went to Israel).  1000 families have already been blessed with food and blankets due to the donations already offered.  The goal is to raise 1 million dollars.

One purchase of Rose Essential oil hand lotion, will give $20 to the Healing Hands Foundation and the Nepal Fundraising efforts. You can donate/purchase by going here...

I did cry myself to sleep last night and cried off and on this morning as I wondered if I had made the right choice.  Did my fears stop me from being there in person like I should have been? I'm so grateful for the knowledge of the resurrection. I know those children will see their parents again someday, and I look forward to seeing the children in a couple of months.

Below is a letter that I wrote to the children as my heart ached to be with them. At first it started out as if I was talking to them and bringing the love from the "many mothers" who donated the oils, but then it transitioned to my trying to talk to them as if I was their own mother and then I realized at the end it was as if mother earth was speaking to them. It is imperfect, but it is what poured out. I had it translated into Nepali for the kids and caregivers. You can see the translation below the english version...


"Dear Children,

I love you.  These essential oils are precious gifts that have been brought to you from me.  Please accept them into your lives and into your hearts.  The essential oils of the plant do many wonderful things to provide beautiful fragrances that calm, energize, uplift, inspire, fight for, protect, lift, encourage, cleanse, purify, stabilize, and either warm or cool depending on the need.

Each essential oil is unique.  Each essential oil has a different “personality”.  Just like you. As you learn about each essential oil, you will better know how each essential oil will help you personally.  

Some essential oils you will love.  Other essential oils you will not like.  It is the essential oils that we dislike that can sometimes teach us the most about ourselves.  Why is it that I do not like that particular smell?  Why is it that I absolutely love the smell of certain essential oils and not others?

Look into your heart.  You will learn why.  Please allow the essential oil to help you.  The essential oils work gently.  Less applied more often is more beneficial.  

I love you.  I pray for you.  I want to be there with you. I know that there will be loving people who will be sent to you. They will be able to hug you, apply these essential oils to your feet, hold you and look into your eyes so that you can see my love through their eyes. 

You are so very brave.  The earth shook and buildings crumbled.  You were protected.  

As you look out into the night sky, and the star-filled heavens, please know that I am with you.  Feel my love in the smell of the flowers, in the cooling touch of the water, in the gentle touch of the rain.  Please feel my love as the sun rises and as the clouds set high in the sky.

Please feel my love as you observe the bugs, and the animals and as you feel the gentle breeze. 

Mother earth.  These essential oils are my gift to you. I love you and I try to reach out to you in many ways.  Please open your minds, your hearts and your soul to the mother spirit that I bring.  I will flood you with peace.


Mother Earth"


Here is the same letter written in Napali...

प्रिय बच्चाहरु,

तिमीलाई माया गर्छु यी अत्यावश्यक तेल मबाट ल्याइएको भनेर अनमोल उपहार हो आफ्नो जीवन मा आफ्नो हृदय मा उनलाई स्वीकार गर्नुहोस् संयंत्र को आवश्यक तेल शान्त, energize उत्थान, प्रेरित लागि लड्न, रक्षा, लिफ्ट, प्रोत्साहन, शुद्ध, निर्मल, स्थिर, न्यानो वा सुन्दर या आवश्यकता मा निर्भर कि सुन्दर सुगंध प्रदान गर्न धेरै अद्भुत कुराहरू के

प्रत्येक आवश्यक तेल अद्वितीय प्रत्येक आवश्यक तेल फरक "व्यक्तित्व" बस तपाईंलाई रुचि तपाईं प्रत्येक आवश्यक तेल सिक्न तपाईंले राम्रो प्रत्येक आवश्यक तेल व्यक्तिगत तपाईंलाई मदत गर्नेछ कसरी थाहा हुनेछ

तपाईं प्रेम हुनेछ केही आवश्यक तेल तपाईंलाई रुचि छैन अन्य आवश्यक तेल यो हामी कहिलेकाहीं सबैभन्दा आफैलाई बारेमा हामीलाई सिकाउन सक्छन् मन नपराउने भन्ने आवश्यक तेल किन विशेष गन्ध रुचि छैन भनेर हो? किन यो निश्चित आवश्यक तेल छैन अरूको गन्ध बिल्कुल मन ?

आफ्नो स्मरणमा हेर तपाईं किन सिक्न हुनेछ आवश्यक तेल तपाईंलाई मदत गर्न अनुमति गर्नुहोस् आवश्यक तेल बिस्तारै काम कम अधिक अक्सर लागू अधिक लाभकारी

तिमीलाई माया गर्छु तिमीलाई लागि प्रार्थना तपाईं संग हुन चाहन्छन् तिमीलाई पठाइने जो मायालु मान्छे त्यहाँ हुनेछ भनेर थाह तपाईं आफ्नो आँखा माध्यम मेरो प्रेम देख्न सक्छौं भनेर तिनीहरूले, तपाईं गले आफ्नो खुट्टा यी आवश्यक तेल लागू तपाईं पकड आफ्नो आँखा मा हेर्न सक्नेछन्

तपाईं धेरै साहसी छन् पृथ्वी shook भवनहरु crumbled तपाईं सुरक्षित थिए

तपाईं रात आकाश, तारा भरिएको आकाश बाहिर हेर्न, तपाईं संग हुँ भनी थाहा गर्नुहोस् वर्षामा को कोमल स्पर्श मा, पानी को ठंडा स्पर्श मा, फूल को गन्ध मेरो प्रेम महसुस सूर्य उदाउँनेसमय रूपमा आकाश मा उच्च सेट बादल रूपमा मेरो प्रेम महसुस गर्नुहोस्

तपाईं कोमल हावा महसुस रूपमा तपाईं बग, पशुहरू पालन रूपमा मेरो प्रेम महसुस गर्नुहोस्

आमा पृथ्वीमा यी अत्यावश्यक तेल तपाईं मेरो उपहार हो तिमीलाई माया गर्छु धेरै तरिकामा तपाईं अघि बढ्न खोज्छन् आफ्नो मन, आफ्नो हृदय ल्याउन कि आमा आत्मा आफ्नो प्राण खोल्न गर्नुहोस् शान्ति संग तपाईं बाढी हुनेछ


आमा धरती


With much love,